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So, as some of you know, I made a New Year's Resolution (like a bundle of them, really) to be more consistently active online. To maintain my 750 words streak. To post Hippo and Bird 5 times a week. To participate in the exchanges I found just after Yuletide. To not disappear from 1MW. To reply to comments. To post regularly to DW.
And then I disappeared from the internets.
Because I got a job! Completely unexpectedly, on a referral, I got a job!
Now, not having worked for a few (read: 6) months before that, I was a little out of practice at getting out in the world, dealing with people, etc. And even a half day at work left me exhausted for the whole next day. Three days in a row wiped me out for a whole weekend. And I completely failed out of all of my internet and fic related resolutions. I was tired all the time, and I let my room slide, because I was too burnt out to make it better (which then makes me feel depressed, and begins the vicious cycle I had been in for most of last year and was finally escaping from).
Then, just as I started to adjust and was like, "hey, I can do some writing this weekend" "hey, I feel like doing laundry and picking up a bit tonight" ... I got a second job as an emergency fill in for someone, and that was like this crazy rush to catch up and get everything done in two weeks.
Oh, and my mom and I started a new diet right the day before that, so those two weeks (and this one) I'm also starving and craving all kinds of things I can no longer have.
And while I'm happy about the jobs, I'm also tired and a bit stressed by them, and haven't had time for my writing or any other fun things. The jobs inadvertently put the kibosh on all of my New Year's Resolutions, so I feel kind of failure-like for that. I haven't even done my homework in the last 2 weeks. And I'm upset that I completely disappeared from the internets and got none of my writing or anything done. I've got a lot of catching up to do - especially for 1MW and Hippo and Bird.
So the whole thing has been bit of a step backwards for me.
But now that those two weeks are past, and that pace is slowing, I'm finally able to start looking hopefully at my laptop again.
And on the plus side, I was able to get back last night, just in time for Shipswap and Invisible Fandom, so all is not lost!
But yeah, this was basically just to explain why I disappeared for a month, and also to make that public-ish first step back, because the first step back is the hardest. But I'm not just vanishing and coming back next year like nothing happened. Not again. I'm coming back now. I won't be around as often as last year, and it will take me a while to get all of my "thank you"s and comments out, but I am going to do it!
I will!
For Pony!
And then I disappeared from the internets.
Because I got a job! Completely unexpectedly, on a referral, I got a job!
Now, not having worked for a few (read: 6) months before that, I was a little out of practice at getting out in the world, dealing with people, etc. And even a half day at work left me exhausted for the whole next day. Three days in a row wiped me out for a whole weekend. And I completely failed out of all of my internet and fic related resolutions. I was tired all the time, and I let my room slide, because I was too burnt out to make it better (which then makes me feel depressed, and begins the vicious cycle I had been in for most of last year and was finally escaping from).
Then, just as I started to adjust and was like, "hey, I can do some writing this weekend" "hey, I feel like doing laundry and picking up a bit tonight" ... I got a second job as an emergency fill in for someone, and that was like this crazy rush to catch up and get everything done in two weeks.
Oh, and my mom and I started a new diet right the day before that, so those two weeks (and this one) I'm also starving and craving all kinds of things I can no longer have.
And while I'm happy about the jobs, I'm also tired and a bit stressed by them, and haven't had time for my writing or any other fun things. The jobs inadvertently put the kibosh on all of my New Year's Resolutions, so I feel kind of failure-like for that. I haven't even done my homework in the last 2 weeks. And I'm upset that I completely disappeared from the internets and got none of my writing or anything done. I've got a lot of catching up to do - especially for 1MW and Hippo and Bird.
So the whole thing has been bit of a step backwards for me.
But now that those two weeks are past, and that pace is slowing, I'm finally able to start looking hopefully at my laptop again.
And on the plus side, I was able to get back last night, just in time for Shipswap and Invisible Fandom, so all is not lost!
But yeah, this was basically just to explain why I disappeared for a month, and also to make that public-ish first step back, because the first step back is the hardest. But I'm not just vanishing and coming back next year like nothing happened. Not again. I'm coming back now. I won't be around as often as last year, and it will take me a while to get all of my "thank you"s and comments out, but I am going to do it!
I will!
For Pony!
